Good morning(it’s 6.am in my country as I write this) Phil-far-relatives, hello to you all who are reading at different time zones. So I woke up today, sober and healthy. I am not as anxious as I have felt for many days. I feel it’s good I write something about mental health, as most of my Far relatives, who are surviving in this recent day world, are going through things and wouldn’t talk about it.
Many at times people write about mental health and will only write about the signs and symptoms of mental illnesses, but I would like to get a little personal ;whenever I can, to be able to talk to someone somewhere, because I’m not as different . I know most people have diagnosed themselves with anxiety and depression from the Google. Like myself, I did that. I do not think a doctor would recommend that. But hey! So what if you did! That’s a clear sign you are not okay.
People do this self diagnosis because it’s easier to consult with our phones nowadays than it is with people. We do this because we fear to be judged and the stigma associated with mental disorders. Let’s just say, associated with not being okay, because it starts there.
In the one man society we live in nowadays, it’s each one for themselves. People want to compete with one another. People want to achieve more than the other person. It’s not bad, to want to make it, what’s wrong is that competition we put, that I need to be better than her/him. This leaves us with a very selfish attitude. We really don’t care about our neighbors because if they’re not okay, that’s good for us because, that’s less competition. And when we’re not doing okay, we’re afraid to ask for help because we think we will be judged and get exposed that we’ve failed.
My relatives, it’s not that I am doing okay myself, that’s why I understand all this. I am also trying to put a general idea of this whole thing, for everyone to feel there part of how this situation is. Myself I have been jealous of things that I shouldn’t have, I have lived in competition with people who I didn’t even know personally, I have looked at myself differently with despise and felt not good enough and all for what? To leave myself stressed for months!
People don’t really get it when they start to slowly destroy themselves. It all happens so fast. Actually, you cannot blame anyone because the society over the years, has neglected, this topic. Our young people are not enlightened about the importance of being mentally sober. And I mean sober in everything. I mean being clear minded. Not just staying away from drugs. We’re not taught that from small age, we come to know that this thing is real when we’re sunk deep into it already.
I would write a lot, but for starters I just want to tell that one reader, who is feeling a mess, that it’s okay to be not okay. You don’t know how far you have reached to just admit to yourself that you’re not OK. Maybe people tell you, it’s going to be okay, and you have heard it a thousand times now, and nothing has changed, I will repeat it;it’s gonna be okay. Could be tomorrow, next week, next month or even next year or five years from now. So what if it takes time? Why are you trying to rush yourself? Always remember, the universe or God brought you here on this earth, you are breathing, you don’t create the tomorrow you so have so much plan for, and the people you care so much of what they think about you, have their own struggles and at the end of the day, you’re alone as a person . You and only you alone can make a difference in your life.
So relatives, let that being not okay feeling sink in. Let that I want to be okay attitude live with you. Embrace everything good in your life no matter how small you think it is. After all it is the only good thing you have. For the bad, that which makes you doubt your worthiness, let go of it I beg of you.
If you feel like you’re not loved, trust me, this stranger writing this loves you. You can talk to me about anything whenever you feel down. I will definitely tell you the good you don’t want to see in yourself. You’re amazing, you just need to realize that. Stay strong. You deserve the best.
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